I have six more months to lead the responsibility-free life... my life as a student is coming to an end. As I reach this crossroads, I cannot help but feel a little sense of apprehension and fear of having to face the "real world". The corporate rat race always loomed in the distance, too far away for serious consideration. Now, I stand at the edge of it, one foot on the starting line.

I feel tired of the emotional roller coaster that I have been put through for the past year or so and now, I refuse to feel anymore. I think that when I went home, I chose to take all the emotional, feely bits around me and stuff it back in. I zipped it all in and threw away the key. Effectively, I went home and killed my emotions, or rather, my ability to feel beyond a certain magnitude. I have chosen to follow the philosophy of "not sweating the small stuff". Whether it is healthy or not, I feel very happy to not feel anything. (Excuse the irony.)

This semester's theme is Good Charlotte's "Dance Floor Anthem" because that's how I feel: I don't wanna be in love; with anyone at all. I just want to live life the way it is and not get entangled in any emotional traps.

Dance Floor Anthem

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin' on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin' it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one