He didn't make me a promise and I didn't make him one either. We didn't plan it. It just happened. And now he wants me to give him two weeks to clear his head. Ironically, this time apart has the opposite effect on me - I'm distracted when he's not around.

I should appreciate that this time alone he needs is because he values our friendship so much but I think on some level I feel like I've been rejected. I hate that I've become so dependent on having him around that it's not quite the same when he's not there.

At the end of the day, I have to decide if I want to continue along this vein with someone who is selfish to the point that I will never come first with him, especially in lieu of the baggage he comes with.

Because I know I can only fall deeper.

The million dollar question is: how objective can I be and for how long? For now, I just want to take things as it comes and go with the flow but it's not a state that may last forever.