[[*To Fix A Broken Life, Use The Tools Of The Heart*]]

[[*A loveless world is a dead world, and always there comes an hour when one is weary of prisons, of one's work, and of devotion to duty, and all one craves for is a loved face; the warmth and wonder of a loving heart*]] - "The Plague" by Albert Camus

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Monday, October 30, 2006

I wake up everyday and kill myself with my perfectionist behavior. I think that by out-performing everyone, I'm good. But I know that it is actually my fear of failure that is holding me back from my true potential.

On the surface, I appear to be:

Confident
Strong
Out-spoken
Focused
Self-Assured

But I am none of the above.

Under all the dramas, there is just a confused girl still trying to find her place in the world and who she truly is. I'm just good at hiding the tears behind a smile.

I needed you to put me before her. But you're too selfish to do it because you think I'm strong enough to handle it. Honestly, I'm not. And I kick myself everyday for telling you "in honesty" that I can.

You won't read this but I wish I could tell you that I wanted to be No.1 in your heart.

posted at 7:23 PM

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