If you're planning to watch "THE BREAK UP", my advice is to wait for it to come out on DVD. It's a movie that flopped because the hype surrounding it built my expectations up and in the end, the actual movie wasn't that great. Kinda like "FINDING NEMO". In any case, "THE BREAK UP" left me feeling really cheated as it had a really bad ending. Still, there were lessons to take away from the show.

All my life, I've strived hard to be supportive and giving to the people I love. For the people who matter to me, I would move mountains and cross oceans, even at my own expense. I suppose on some level, a part of me takes joy in making someone happy, and on a subconscious more selfish reason, I'm seeking approval. Whatever the case, it's always heartbreaking when you're not appreciated. Sometimes, it's not that you do it to be thanked but a simple 'thank you' or acknowledgement can make that much of a difference.

I'm done breaking my back for others. I'm done with smiling on the outside while I'm bleeding inside. A part of me has come to realise that a true measure of friendship or any relationship is the other party's ability to accept me for who I am, the way I am. I'm not saying that everything I've done in the past has all been a farce, but I am saying that I'm done with being "Mary Sunshine" all the time. For once, I'm advocating being selfish. Not arrogantly so but on a necessity level that will enable me to put myself first. It's going to be hard to break old habits but for the sake of my self-esteem and self-improvement, I hope I can do it.

Independence has taught me that I didn't really need to lean that much on you, afterall.