At a stoplight in the middle of the night,
Stuck in first and I wonder if I should stay
The right is history and to my left the choice is right
But this seems a little bit too hard
And all the questions come running through my mind
- will I see this another way?
The simple truth is i'm falling, falling down,
and I don't want to drag her through the bottom
Then she says,"Sit in front of me,
turn around you'll see, I'm all you'd ever want,
all you'd ever need,
Come back into my world, you know I'm always yours"

And she makes so much sense,
when she says "don't throw this away"
Its hard to know whats real when it all seems wrong
But I promise you I'll find whats going on
I just need to follow the sun before
I'll know if I'll see this another way

The simple truth is
I'm falling, falling down,
and I don't want to drag you through the bottom
Still you say "Sit in front of me, turn around you'll see,
I'm all you'd ever want, all you'd ever need,
Come back into my world, you know I'm still your girl"
And she makes so much sense,
when she says "don't throw this away"

Isabell she treads so lightly, floating in her gypsy dresses
Even though her words cut deep I can't deny the truth in them
On the phone she talks a lot and me, I listen hopelessly,
So directionless, I head into oblivion.
And then I decide to give another random memory,
To remind her of the first time we sang out to the sea
Oh isabell, you always understood me,
Please isabell, forgive me now.

...and all the questions come running through my mind
- will I see this another way?
The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down,
and I don't want to drag you through the bottom,
No I don't want to drag you through the bottom.

-"Falling Down" (Ben Jelen)

I got my exam timetable today. It really sucks. I literally have exams for the whole of the exam period. I've got papers on 13th, 19th and 23rd June, with one tentative take-home exam on the 1st. I know I should be happy that I've been given ample time to study but I can't help but feel that I'd be burnt out by the middle of it. :ARGH:

I called my best friend, Estee, this morning though and it made that world of difference in making my day that much better. I haven't seen her in about a year and I miss her terribly. But hearing her voice on the phone, it just made me so happy. I've been so worried about her cos' it's hard for us to talk on the phone due to the time difference. I love that girl so much, I swear. We're going to try and make it a weekly thing to call each other. Hopefully, the weekly calls will get us both through the year. I can't wait to see her at the end of the year...

I finally met Asish's housemates - Sandeep and Tad (spelling?) - today. They are really nice people. Yvie met them as well and thought they were nice. We saw Vinay as well who honestly, has just been weird. I don't know what's up with him, whether it's stress or not but "all's not well in Gotham City" in his case. Oh well...

Then, I cooked dinner for Cyn and Yvie. That was pretty cool. Very spur of the moment but I didn't want to eat alone. I've been so stressed of late, it's the first proper meal I've had in ages. But now that I've got my timetable, I'm going to try and ease up a bit before I end up killing myself before the exams even start.

I'll try harder to take better care of myself.

I'm just utterly exhausted.