I was so farkin' wrong...
I think realizing it made me feel as if my heart had taken a leap off the Himalayas. I could have cried there and then at the moment it hit me.
But it's something I can't control. I just wished I hadn't been wrong. The signs were pointing at it but somehow or another, I still read them wrong.
I'm the biggest idiot.
The disappointment is excruciating. Honestly. If I had been right, it would have been beautiful. I haven't lost all but I wish I'd could have had that much more.